Sunday, 14 November 2010
whats been happening? not much really i'm still in hospital which sucks. i miss my amazing friends. i'm still on constant. and i feel like i've let everyone down. wow i love my life
Friday, 9 July 2010
so heres the update
i'm back in hospital at this new place and am on constant 1 to 1 because i'm not "keeping myself safe" for heavens sake! and they barely let me do any excercise oor anyhting
and i've retty much made all my friends hate me as well cause i don't deserve good friends like them if i'm not going to be around much :(
so thats the update and i'll keep writing regulary
Saturday, 10 April 2010
Monday, 29 March 2010
i wish i could just tell the stupid voice in my head to leave me alone. but i'm not strong enough. and i'm just tired. and i can't. and i feel like i never will be able to. and i just feel so rubbish that i'm past caring any more.
i'm tired of having to put on this mask every single day and act like i'm happy, because i'm not. i feel like all the time there is a massive weight on me that never lets go. my head is surronded by all these thoughts and i just want them to please just leave me alone
Sunday, 28 March 2010
Sunday, 21 March 2010
Saturday, 13 March 2010
Saturday, 6 March 2010
Friday, 5 March 2010
" dreaming permits each and everyone of us to be quitely and safely insane every night of our lives"
Sunday, 28 February 2010
hello there :) yes matey so yesterday i went shopping which was a pretty awesome expierence... i had so much fun and for the first time in quite a while i flet like evrything was back to normal. i swear i haven't laughed so much in quite a while. there was a baby in a pram that was crying so their mother tryed to prevent their tears by stuffing a pom bear in their mouth and me and one of my friends just stood there like literally wetting ourselves. good times. and then we spent ages trying to find the right glue for me (i am very rubbish at making decisions) and i got one that smells nice and is blue.
Saturday, 27 February 2010
anyway now that i've revealed the reason for that post name just thought i'd say 2 HOURS TILL SHOPPING AND SEEING MY FRIENDS :) :) sorry i'm just super dooper excited.
but yes i do actually have to buy stuff as well:
and that's it. yes i'm making a scrapbook which shall be fun and will give me something to do when i'm bored (which does tend to happen at night as i have trouble sleeping) and can i just give some advice, just completly changing the subject, don't draw on your hand with berol pen becaus eit does not come off! i drew a peace sign on my hand and it hasn't come off! that was on thursday and since then i have had servral showers and it just does not want to come off, ah well
anyway sorry for the boring post
ahh home again :) and another busy weekend... in a minute i'm walking to morrisons, then having a bike ride then meeting up with 2 of my friends for shopping :) i'm so excited to see them cause one of them i haven't seen for like...EVER and we've known each other since year 2 aned she makes me laugh so it shall be good :)
"i believe in being strong when everything is going wrong"
Saturday, 20 February 2010
i also went for a bike ride which was really nice and it felt like summer. i love summer...
now i'm going to go make a collage of pictures of me and my friends for my computor background
"never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting"
Friday, 19 February 2010
so this is just a post about my week which suprisingly hasn't been too bad! it was half term so we went shopping in west quay and had to have lunch out! that was difficult. we went to marks and spencers to pick out stuff. i had a wrap so i didn't have to have crisps. once that wa sover with we wnet shopping for 2 hours! and the next day we went shopping as well. we also did extreme ironing where you pretend to do ironing in weird places... it was really fun.
and now i'm home :) so my plan for the weekend is: watch sleeping beauty on youtube tonight then tomorrow have breakfast, do supo, walk to morrisons, have snack, do supo, go on a bike ride, have lunch do supo, go shopping come back and later... PLAY MONOPOLY! my mums here so she got this around the world one with bank cards and everything! i love monopoly :D
so its going to be pretty busy this weekend which will be good cause i like being busy :)
i'll post again later on
my quote for the day that gets me through the tough times is:
"what cannot be avoided must be endured"
Sunday, 14 February 2010
some people might think i'm wierd but i love unusual names for my kids (yeah i'm sad i've already thought of names for them) so here are my names, see what you think:
Saturday, 13 February 2010
hello there, i'm ruby. i'm 15 and am new to this whole blog thing, but i thought hey this sounds fun. i think this will be good to write down stuff like if its worrying me or whatever. and all about my life, its no wonderland but oh well here goes...
at the moment is crawl by chris brwon. the lyrics are amazing. i don't particulary like chris brown because of the whole rihanna thing but i do beleive that people should have second chances so long as someone is sorry and i think chris brown is sorry for what he did but thats just my opinion.